BONE BROTH.... has become one of my absolute favorite natural remedies for gut healing and healthy digestion. I'm going to share what the benefits of bone broth are, as well as my favorite homemade recipe. What is Bone Broth? Bone broth is a broth made from the marrow, tendons, fat, ligaments and basically all bone … Continue reading homemade bone broth & bone broth benefits
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Home sweet home. Kinda 😂. Everyone keeps asking me “oh are you just so happy to have answers? Are you so happy to be home? Etc?” Would it make me an ungrateful brat if I said in certain ways I’m more upset and sad then I was before? 😕 + Healing from surgery is super hard. I woke up this morning with a huge pocket of fluid in my belly. I just look down and it’s scarred, it hurts, it’s gross, & I wonder if it will ever actually heal. Although we know that something is wrong, we don’t actually know what is causing it or how to fix it. In some ways I feel really depressed knowing how damaged my organs are & that there’s nothing I can do about it. In other ways I feel excited to try my hand at everything I can to support my body’s healing process 🌿. + All morning I just start to sob every time I look at my body. Will I ever look normal again? Will I ever feel sexy again? Will my digestion ever go back to healthy? Will I be able to handle more pregnancies? How much longer will this journey last? Am I strong enough to push through the sadness, grief and trauma that I feel right now? + This whole post probably seems super dramatic because it is 😂. But part of my healing has been just embracing the times I don’t feel good. I am optimistic about 80% of the time but I also want to be real about the 20%. People always say it’s so inspiring to be positive all the time but I also think it’s inspiring to be authentic even if it’s not rainbows & unicorns 🦄. Trying to find peace ✌🏽 & acceptance of me, when me feels really hopeless & really un-cute. That’s today’s vibe. So who wants to bring me comfort food 😂.
Just really missing my babies today 😭. I feel super emotional. Usually my first knee-jerk reaction to challenges is to be as optimistic as possible, be strong for everyone, and get through it like a champ. Usually after all the hype as settled down & reality sets in is when the emotions flow 😂. + Prepping myself for the next couple months of recovery... getting back into juicing, healing broths, herbs, rest. The thought of not being able to pick up my kids, starting over at the gym, and wondering if this surgery is even going to work are all pressing on me. Also wondering how the f I’m gonna pack and move if everything goes well with buying our home in a month... 😳. I’m such a futuristic person so it’s hard for me to just be in this moment. + Trying to just breathe, find gratitude in each moment, and love the excuse/opportunity for deep rest and healing for my body 💛 + Amazing photo by @melissaleavittphoto
Good Morning 🌞! Just wanted to give a lil update. I did a small one in my stories but wanted to share some more details here. + The surgery went well yesterday! It was about 2.5 hours, Dr Peugh decided to do a laparoscopy instead of a full abdominal incision which was a pleasant surprise to wake up to 😍. During the surgery he found that 40% of my small intestines were extremely scarred, and there was some bulk scar tissue as well as pockets of fluid and air in the lining. He decided to remove 10 cm of the most scarred and damaged tissue for a biopsy. Next, he found that my appendix had traveled up under my rib cage & was smashing my liver (it’s supposed to be down by your hip), so he removed that as well. My abdominal cavity was filled with a couple liters of fluid (known as ascites), which we don’t know why. He said all my other organs and my ovaries look healthy and I didn’t have any cysts. + He says in 20 years of being a surgeon he has never seen anything like it. My condition seems to be a complete anomaly. He sent the pictures and biopsy to the UofU, Duke, as well as some prestigious surgeons to look over. They are in the research phase deciding the next course of action! It’s likely that the scarring is due to the extreme stomach pain and digestive problems I’ve had for 20 years. I’m relieved to hopefully be getting some answers after a lifetime of suffering with this condition 💛. + I am feeling GREAT! All the nurses keep commenting on how quickly I am healing & how well I’m doing. I’ve been walking laps with my undies hanging out the back and looking G in my beanie hiding my greasy hair 😂. Pain levels are pretty low. Besides some nausea from the morphine epidural & also the fact that there is no healthy food at this hospital I’m happy and optimistic ✌🏽. I’ll post more updates once the surgeon gives me the results of the biopsy. + Thank you so much for the prayers, love and support. I know it’s because of you guys that everything is going so smoothly. I love you all so much. Special shout out to our families who are taking care of my boys and for friends who have brought food and checked in on me. LOVE U ALL 💕
Let’s. Freakin. Go ✌🏽. Seems kinda ironic that this post is coming right after my last one 😂. But life has thrown me another curveball. I’m here for it. I’ve vacillated between heartbroken & plain excited to have answers over the last couple days. The perfect turn of events brought me to the perfect providers who have discovered that I have some genetic intestinal twisting and lack of proper blood flow that could have been part of the reason for my health problems all my life 😭. For the first time it feels like I have some answers. Today I go into surgery at 10am to get everything repaired & hopefully be able to truly heal 🤞🏽. I also get a v gnar scar from ribs to pelvis that you know imma be making a fashion statement with 😏. I see you bikini season! + But in all jokes aside - I want to ask for some prayers 🙏🏼. I can feel the prayers of everyone carrying me through hard moments. I want this surgery to go well. I want to have the courage to take on the challenge of healing from this while also closing on our first house in a few weeks (gr8 timing 🤡), taking care of 2 toddlers, running my businesses etc. 😜. I know I can do this. I’m so done with pain & suffering. Let see what life is gonna teach me this time 👍🏽. So grateful for all the love & support. Thank you so much. 💛💛💛 SEE YA ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS SWEET ANESTHESIA 👌🏽
🌞 Transformation 🌞 (—> swipe to see before 😱). This is about 6 months of hard work. Some of you already know this, but last year I struggled with the darkest time of my life. I was in the depths of an eating disorder, my anxiety/mental health was terrible, I was dealing with chronic pain and other health problems... I honestly didn’t think I would ever crawl out of that space. The worst part was that NO one knew I was struggling. I just suppressed it all & put on my perfect face. No one really knew the load I was carrying, and in some ways, I didn’t even know 💛. + I hit rock bottom in the far right photos in September 2019. I was only 70 lbs. I was absolutely overwhelmed with how I was going to ever get better. But there was just enough flame in there, a spark and a desire to heal. I had to keep going, for Michael, for my babies, and most importantly for myself. + I started going to therapy every week, seeing an energy healer, journaling and meditation EVERY day. Daily exercise (which at first was very small and inconsequential). Eating a balanced diet of organic Whole Foods (and some junk food too 🤷🏽♀️). Using herbs, plant medicine & essential oils for healing the mind + body + spirit. And LOTS of prayer/surrender. It took everything in me to climb out & I’ve never been so challenged. + But I can say that I look in the mirror today, and I see a strong, compassionate, hard working, bad freakin ass woman. I am so grateful for the gift of healing & coming this far. Do I still struggle? Yes. Every single day sometimes. It’s just part of the journey. No matter where you are, you CAN get better. You can overcome anything. I’m here to share that message today. 💕 Thanks for being here & sharing in my journey. All the love ✌🏽
GIVEAWAY CLOSED 🎉. Thank you so much to everyone who participated! I really had fun & feel so loved. The winner(s) of the giveaway (I added an extra hehe) are...... @hayannej_ & @camillaaapace 🌞🌞🌞. DM me your address little cuties! + Also, the class went great tonight! I’d love to do one every month. I’m still trying to figure out how to upload it to IGTV, I’ll probably do an instagram class next time. What would you be interested in learning about? 🍄 + ps this photo is by @melissaleavittphoto